Confusion

its ironical when i stay confused most of the times but yet think that my logic prevails above and beyond anything. i have a strong, confident, happy face for the world ready to solve their problems but when im trying to think for myself, i manage to go in a state of oblivion away from anybody and everything. i think about the bads and the critique it carefully but dont have time to look for the goods or compliment them in any way. how sad is that. i guess my experience has taught me to be a pessimist rather than being an optimist. where do i draw the line and how do i solve my confusion? you ask me, i dont know.