Runningg~~~

run like the wind machus. run. you run and you thither but dont know where. you want to be social or you want to be a "good boy". you want to pursue your happiness or you want to be accepting to the surroundings. is it not ironical when sometimes you feel that you have lost all control of your life and you see yourself on an island with few resources. you see them, you know you can do a lot to get off it. but dont know how to. your creative mind fails you, your potential leaves you, your ambitions go with the tides, your patience go down the drain and you just get more and more frustrated by the day. what do you do when you find yourself in a situation where you know what is right and what you want to do but is not acceptable by the norm. what do you do? ones logic might acutally ask you to listen to your inner wants and inner feelings and try to satisfy them to the best possible. is it really possible? can one really do the things they have in mind or is it just a myth? i have a couple of ambitions. real or arbitaray dont know. dont know where to draw the line. where to go and what lead to pick? who to battle and who to subdue to? what do i do? you face these ambitions and have a theory from day one but you find it ever so hard to fit it into your normal daily routine that its not even funny. you want to do soo much and want to accomplish soo much. but with the negativity that surrounds you, the busy schedules and the ever so diminishing amount of patience, that you really dont feel like getting up and doing anything about it. it doesn't matter if that takes like 5 minutes of your daily routine. you find yourself asking the question what good is that gonna do. im not gonna pursue this after maybe a week. so why bother. thus those ambitions remain a part of us. deep down inside we feel a shrinking feeling. its like you grow frustrated, loose patience, loose sight of what you actually set out to do. my mind is a complete blank right now. The End.