Just a Thought

Imagine yourself in a plastic bag covered all over you. You can move unlike a coffin but restricted beyond imagination. I can mould it, I can move, but the feeling of freedom is a dream from the ancient times. Convoluted thinking? I think not. We are all stuck in a land or a “place” in our own little plastic bags. Me, I feel the bag caving in each day, making the world around me shrink, taking the breathe out of me each time I breathe, polluting the very air with the mist of pessimism that surrounds me. Everywhere I look, I see a strange sight, strange people – all looking at me with a question in their eyes. “Where are U going? You can’t do it? You don’t have the capability to do it? How can U do it? You are 27 but I want to treat you like a 13 year old. I want to find new ways – new ways to see things. That in it self is an optimistic approach. I am studying marketing in a leading school. Someone once asked me to market myself to them – forget degree, disregard prior experience – just market yourself. Hmmm. I thought about it. I couldn’t answer. I know myself the best. Not my best friend, mom, dad or brother. Me, just me. Then why can I not sell myself? When asked to tell about my bad habits, I spurt out in a second. Huh!!! Human nature? Bullshit. Pessimistic Approach – HELL YAA!! From childhood we have been wrongly trained to see the worse. When I failed a class in my early schooling, I was corrected and told off and had to go give reasons for my failing a particular exam. It did not matter if I had A’s in the rest of the exams, the failing course was the predominant aspect of the conversation. I want to break free. Now I do not care where I go or how far I drop in my life, I just want to have an optimistic approach, how to spark the process that would allow me to break free of the things that surround me. I want to restart. I wish there was a restart button built in humans that would clear everything and allow us to start again. Good memories and things you value should remain while others can be deleted. I think that would provide a good way to escape, how harmful and how constructive the process would be, I do not know. I would definitely want to indulge in it. A thing that I want to break free. Please someone break the plastic bag for me or at least provide me a way to do it. And please DON’T tell me I can’t do it. I have not failed. I have just found 10,000 different ways that do not work. So bear me a little longer of Fuck off.