Pawns or Kings???

hmmm. choose. i dare you choose one. but think about it before you acutally go ahead and choose. analyze your life, your surroundings, your work, people, friends, acquaintances, family, ethics, road to success and blah blah blah. yes i know. i always come up with the strangest notions dont i? but what can i say. i only say the things that come naturally to me. who wouldn't. dont you? we pawns or kings??? mom tells us do this... yes ma'am, boss tells us do this... yes sir, hubby tells us do this... jee meray aaka. where should we go? you want to run away with me? me too. but where. how? when? where? why? running away will solve our problems. no? if not then what will. oh yah now you switching your point of view to being a king. ok. let me put it to you this way. what in today's world or everyday world that you do actually gives you the right to choose your destiny? i tell you nothing. we live our lives by the culture, the norms, the family expectations, the friends circle, cant make friends with this person... why not... cause they dont want to. but alas. you want something. it never goes your way. what exactly are we to do? there are rules and regulations for every damn thing in this world. even a table assembly comes with an instruction book. yes there is. why dont we follow it. not the way we want it to be? why are all the good things in life so damn hard to get and achieve? i want to be a creative designer.... im stuck doing mba. what to do? how do i get the knowledge i want and indulge in something that i want to do which i think i might be good at. yes yes i know lots of stupid and idiotic things all at once in one blog. but thats the way i am. all confused with no direction. why does all the good things have to wait... and we have to be patient about them? i want them now.... why cant i have them now. its easy to go get a freaking chocolate from teh store... why cant i get the things i want right now. why do i have to wait in line like everybody else does. i want the things now... yes im whining. why shouldn't i whine. again i ask... pawns or kings... hmmmm.... i wonder.... i think we are at a level below the pawns... we are expendable. no security in whatsoever field of life. but alas. you might tell me to wait. yes yes i will wait. what the hell else do i have to do but wait and kill time. oh well... back to the same shit different day syndrome. everyone wants to get out of their current fields.... all those who i know. why isn't anyone doing anything about it. im stuck .... are you? really? sure?? oh well... if thats the way you like it... be it be that way.