Block Button

i have always heard people talk about a delete button in a human that should be present so that they have the option of deleting anything from memories to people to events to circumstances to truth to faith to values to principles to responsibilities to anything and everything that you can possibly imagine. at first i used to agree and nod my head along with them in accordance to this "wish" but when i now think about it, i think it would be better for us to have a block button. yes i know this might not make sense but i think that block button would do more good than a delete button. block your memories, if you dont want to think about them for some time and get out of the realm of the real world for a minute. something like the msn messenger block user list. i think that sounds more practical than a delete button. at least this should have been present in a human.

Confusion

its ironical when i stay confused most of the times but yet think that my logic prevails above and beyond anything. i have a strong, confident, happy face for the world ready to solve their problems but when im trying to think for myself, i manage to go in a state of oblivion away from anybody and everything. i think about the bads and the critique it carefully but dont have time to look for the goods or compliment them in any way. how sad is that. i guess my experience has taught me to be a pessimist rather than being an optimist. where do i draw the line and how do i solve my confusion? you ask me, i dont know.

Complacency

i would like to imagine a place where im able to get out of my daily routine life, get away from the maddening rush of voices in my head, be able to pacify myself with my worldly endevours, watch a movie in total solitude without any disturbance with a bag of popcorn and a nice chilled glass of pineapple tang, listen to loud music, dance aimlessly without feeling conscious or without having to think up of new moves to impress people or feel good of "figuring out" how the particular move went around, hike on top of a mountain, play the guitar without learning the guitar, drum senselessly on the tabla, eat spicy chaat, have a kabab roll, have a chilled coke can, roam around on the mountains, play and stroke a cat that would allow me to be peaceful at heart and soul, drive aimlessly without the tension of roads of rickshaw drivers on the road, travel around the world, go to africa and go on a safari, experience the thrills of bungee jumping, sky diving, wide water rafting, go on a helicopter ride, do the things i haven't had a chance to do and be at peace in mind, body, soul, spirit to name a few. where should one go and what should he or she do to accomplish something as ridiculous as this. yes these are normal day to day routine lives that are supposed to keep us on our tracks but then again we take all this things as a part of routine life, something that is a must or something that is considered as inconsequential. i think it is these little things and hopes and dreams that actually keep us going towards a goal in life, whether it be in reality or in theory. in my opinion i think we should all count our blessings and try to figure them out, as i know they are there, from perfect working of the body to the family environment that we are surrounded with. it could be worse, it could be tragic. thus try to figure out the small pleasures in life as i think they are the drivers and what actually keeps a person going and going and going..... be complacent, be thankful, be patient, be understanding, be forgiving. i think it is these that actually mould the character of a person rather than how much money he or she has or what kind of a car he or she drives. so try to find the little pleasures in life that will keep your motivation on a roll and keep you going and going and going in the right direction.

Ifs and Buts

if this, then that. we do this, then we will be able to accomplish that. if not this way then it wont happen. ok now that we have that covered, and the ifs part of the scenerio at hand is solved, there comes a but in the situation. the irony of it is that it comes before you know it and that poses a problem greater than that of the initial problem statement. i like to be in a situation at hand which is of "importance" (i.e. in the minds of the perceiver) and not have to consider the ifs and buts in the whole issue at hand. for once i would like to be confounded to zero or one option that would allow me to make a choice among the current variables in such a manner that i have to think the least, dwell over it on a small scale, ponder on it for exactly a minute, not have to confer with my "buddies", ask for outside opinion or go in solitude when faced with a mind boggling problem. there should be a book of answers with explainations and exact logical thinking that would guide us to the righ tpath. one should just be able to pick it up and read it, follow it and then apply it to the fullest possible limit to get the most out of it and that should be it. "but" alas.

Truth

why is it that it is the most difficult to be truthful to the ones we care about and the most easiest to the people who dont matter to us? i think it should be the other way around. i know it wont make the most sense or will it follow the general norms of logic, but life would definitely be so much more easier if that were the case. i try to be truthful but at all times or most of it for that matter and it comes out in the wrong way which when understood might create relationships or destroy them depending on the nature of the topic at hand. this thought alone is a killer and thus i think most of us are hesitant in being truthful. i think if both parties were to understand the nature of the topic and then realize and think from both points of views, one might just be able to get out of all the chaos created in the mind of the teller and would work for the sanity of the relationship. i dont know. speaking aloud i guess. or speaking out. u pick!!!

Expectations

ooooo... aren't we all familiar with that word. the cause of the word that causes the most stress in our lives even though we know that it should be a walk in the park knowing that everything and anything is the way you want it and wanted by the other person. its a bitch if you ask me. our expectations just lead us to things and circumstances that are beyond our control and when not met we tend to get upset, have quarrels, have our foundations of our relationships shaken over them. kya kareen. such is life. we want so much and we give so much, but the sad irony is that everybody forgets the time when its time to payback. you tend to give people what they want and be there for them at the time of need and they work in their own little "logical" frame of mind, but when the tables turn, they raise fingers and the question the very notion of our way of thinking and doing things. why? why do we not stop and think and reflect on our actions and words from time to time and analyze it the other way around. why does it always have to be us who have to make the ultimate sacrifice of pleasing people around us. when i came back from states, i was a different person cause that had changed me as a person and my thought process, the way thigns should be done in a "normal" way was learnt. after coming back i tried to apply those things here but unfortunately nobody has the time or the energy to be patient and understand the trail of thought from which the action is being generated. how unfortunate is that. you give so much and you get soo little. and then we blame and point to people for being indifferent, thinking about themselves, not caring, being inconsiderate and blah blah blah. when i get angry i have to calm myself down but when someone else gets angry i have to calm them too. what an irony.... oh well. now its time to say do whateva, think whateva, act whatevaa, not going to be bothered by it. have had enough of it already. so if you want to hold onto those expectations, be my guest but dont expect others to abide to them. it wont happen. ideally it should, but practically it wont. you have been warned.

Individuality

the funny thing is that everywhere you turn and you hear people striving and fighting for individuality in their own little worlds. thats the irony of it all. we strive for one thing and are faced with another in our daily and practical lives. rather ironical if you ask me. "there is no I in team, we are a team, united we stand and divided we fall, all can accomplish more than a single person" are some of the many phrases that we hear continually on a daily basis but when it comes down to the actual time, its all about the I mentality. thats a shame. nobody wants to be a team player. everybody wants to be a leader, thats the problem the society faces on a continual basis, on a daily basis, on an every moment basis. my team member is eager and ever ready to jump on my back and get across the wall but when it comes time for them to help me, they leave me stranded. then we blame society that its their fault and why we are faced with most assholes around us that do not give us our due credit. its a shame. why do the rich get richer and the poor get poorer, why is it that the person with the best gpa will be picked immediately no matter what their skill level is and the person who has a low gpa not get picked at all, why is that a team member of a sports club will get picked faster if he is vocal or adamont about his or her position while the person who is the most complacement and with the most team spirit always left out. why do we strive to be what we aren't? why dont we look in our own little pockets and pick out our best qualities. does being street smart not have anything to do anymore? does it not affect who we are and how it has moulded each and every one of us. what a shame it is.... i guess its true that its the time for you to move ahead and dont wait up for anybody. everybody is in a hurry to get going that they dont stop and think or even pause to realize that they might actually be stepping on someone in the lower order to get ahead while causing them pain. is getting ahead and the freedom for individuality soo desired that it breaks all the barriers of the society and the norms and the values that have been ingrained in our puny little minds that its a concept and idea not even worth stopping on.... hmmmm... i wonder.... do i want to be an individual or do i want to play in the team? MBA teaches us team, culture teaches us individuality... what to choose...